Honestly, who are we to fight the Alchemy?

Since my childhood I have always wanted to achieve big things in life but have always messed them up despite giving my 100 percent. My whole life was filled with scenes which screamed “So close, yet so far”.  I tried my hands on multiple things due to various reasons but one thing I knew was -My heart was the happiest while doing one thing - managing and leading people, but I wasn’t brave enough to take that path, nor was I aware of the options and hence explored multiple opportunities. 

I have been made fun of and called out as “fickle-minded” a lot of times but only I knew no matter what I did, I gave it my all - let it be preparing for GATE in my pre-final years or for GRE in my final year , but none of them were giving me the peace nor happiness I wanted and when I sat down and asked my heart what I actually wanted, what excited  me, it knew , it always knew ; it has always been this- do something in Management and 2 years back right after my graduation I finally made up my mind to do my MBA from one of the top B schools of the country and cut, today 2 years later- a journey filled with lots of ups and downs , a lot of sacrifices- it was indeed a roller coaster ride, but today with a lot of pride and gratitude I can say, “I did it!”. 

Yes I took a lot of time to decide this but once I have decided this is it, I never wanted to turn back again . If you guys ever felt all the things I have felt , are scared about your decisions, are preparing for competitive exams and keep doubting yourself this blog is to say, “If you want to achieve something with all your heart, whole world helps you get it “. You just have to do one thing - don’t give up!

After giving CAT and XAT last year and failing at them miserably despite all my sincere efforts,I was shattered. Though I made into one good B-school my soul didn’t want to settle and I decided to gear myself up for another year. It wasn’t easy to risk it all for sure. Every bad mock pushed me into depression, I had a thousand of questions in my mind doubting my capabilities, lot of self doubt and blamed myself if I was foolish not to join the college I got into the last year and that is when I have decided; “TRUST THE PROCESS” and no matter what happens in life, it happens for a reason, I have understood this line, “Honestly, who are we to fight the alchemy?” and that all I can do is try and I kept pushing, motivating myself. 

But again despite all the efforts and some good mocks my CAT didn’t go well the 2nd attempt too, I messed up a section leading me to get 0 calls from all the IIMs, I almost gave up on my MBA dreams then but like I said I believed in the course of life and never gave up , I prepped myself for XAT . Managing work and preparing for these exams was tiring. After the XAT response sheets came out, I was shattered again seeing low scores in one of the sections. I made my mind that I will not get a call from the college and fell back into my sadness loop crying “Why are my efforts always wasted ?“

But but but , one fine-day the results were out and I wasn’t even ready to check them out as I was sure I wouldn’t make it, but I did clear the test🥺. And I did clear the interview after that, but things weren’t that easy too 😂 I got waitlisted initially ; again making me anxious but finallyyy the waitlist got cleared and I got admitted into “XLRI JAMSHEDPUR”- That day I felt all my soons have turned into a finally! And my belief that “Things work out, one way or another “ just became stronger than ever.

You never know how one thing in your life is connected to another or how it would help you at some point, In my interview, my interviewer asked me about my blogging website and started reading it in the interview, he was impressed and pinged me after the interview appreciating my writings and I have a strong feeling this blog site is one of the main reasons I got into my dream B-School, who would have thought a random blogging site where I just share my personal experiences would work out such magic ? So here’s your reminder to keep doing things you are good at, you never know what would help you when!! 

Today looking back at this journey I can only say “It made me strong, and nothing big comes that easy “ Go live your dreams and make them come true guys and just remember whatever happens , it happens for a reason.I keep telling myself this and I have been in peace ever since . Whatever I have achieved today, it wouldn’t have happened without the people around me-my friends, my parents and my mentor who pushed me when I gave upon myself, if you guys have these type of people; keep them close, because when worse comes to worst, they’ll come first!❤️

“ You can never cross the ocean unless you have the courage to lose sight of the shore “ . I’m not putting out my story because it’s special nor am I trying people to get inspired from it but it is for all the cute people trying to achieve something big everyday fighting too many battles, specially people preparing for competitive exams - this is an effort to tell that my story is normal, if I could do it each and everyone of us can and we are in this together , you are not alone. 

I understand how lonely and sad preparation phase can get sometimes but hold on ,you will get through it .Even if it is helping one person not to give up, the purpose of this blog is served . The blog is a way of saying this - There will be days you want to give up, there will be days you don’t want to do anything but you need to deal through those days, have to be a fighter and rise through all the bad days because at the end - you or your lack of efforts shouldn’t be the reason you failed. You should never regret saying “Maybe , I should have tried harder “.You give it all and if still it doesn’t end up well just know “  There is a better plan written for you “